It is a GREAT Morning, a Beautiful morning, God’s Beauty was dancing all over the sky this morning.

Yesterday Morning I shared some things that were on my heart, some things that were brought up because of the AWESOME message that God spoke to my heart through Jammie Sunday Morning. Some how I erased it ALL, that is probably the most annoying thing ever, but that is a risk that i take Journaling on the computer.
Any how the message was about the relationships in our lives, and how we all have a story to tell, and the importance of telling our story , but even more , to hear the stories of others. Hearing and telling our stories brakes through the shallowness that most relationships get stuck in. Sharing our stories brings depth and a realness to friendships, it softens cold hardened hearts, it invites compassion, and offers LOVE.
So the message got me thinking to the relationships that i have in my life, and I was really shocked at how many shallow relationships that i have. So I had to ask the question, WHY? I think that it has all to do with FEAR, once again the fear that I have chosen to live by for so long has shown it’s ugly face. No more fear for me!
For the past month God has really put my Mother on my heart, and He has spoke it loud and clear through EVERYTHING! I have kinda just put it off, not because I don’t love my Mother or because she is not important to me, but because I think that I fear rejection from my Mother more that any one. I have been wounded by my Mother as a child and as a young woman, which I have forgiven, but the fear still seems to linger. As a daughter I will alway love my Mother and for that reason she will always have huge impact on my heart. ————————————————————————————————————————————++++
The final kick in the butt for me was Michelle and her Mother. Michelle is a beautiful friend that I would one day love to know in a deeper way. Her Mother passed away Saturday evening from breast Cancer, It was such a short battle, they only knew of the cancer for about 3 or 4 months. Michelle allowed me, along with several other women, to walk out this journey with her. I prayed for her and her Mother, and I cried for them all through out. Yesterday the final e-mail came, it crushed me to the deepest part of me, I tried to think of what Michelle must be feeling, what she must be going through. Her mother was only in her 50’s, her life was still so young. I realized that God was in that experience for me, He lovingly showed me that life is so short, it was like getting a second chance with my Mother.
So yesterday I sent my Mother an e-mail, I asked for her to tell me her story. I have no idea how she will respond, or if she would even want to share her story with me, but it is the first step to a deeper relationship with one of the most influential people in my life. It is also another opportunity to face my fear and squash it out of my life.

That’s me today :)

~C