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O how far I am from from where I so Long to be.

I am so tired of stumbling over this sinful flesh of mine.  It seems that no matter how close I get to the Lord, no matter how blown away I am at his almighty power and Love, no mater what all I have seen and heard, and no matter how many times he softens this hard heart, I can not escape my fallenness. How I long to be FREE from it!  Wall after wall is built and torn down, built up and torn down, again! Everything within me desires the day this flesh is gone!

Yet another day for yet another wall to be torn down.

“Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts!

And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way

everlasting!”

Yet another day to surrender more and more, letting go of the sin that so easily entangles, Looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith!

At least I know, that no matter what, God is Good,  he loves me, and will never leave me as I am. Praise the Lord for that!!

~C