Last night was a tough night for me, well it was really in the morning, it all started at around 4am until I got up at 6am. I had this horribly real dream, in my dream Josh had come to me and told me that he had feelings for someone else, another woman. Then there was a long played out drama that fallowed, and seemed to go on forever, by the end of it all I was pretty devastated. I was woken by Josh’s alarm going off, it took me a while to realize that everything that had just happened was a nightmare, and NOT real. After taking a few minutes to recover, I went to Josh and told him, and he did exactly what I needed, he just loved on me.

 

It is crazy how dreams like that can effect us, yes I eventually come to the point of realizing that it is what it is, a dream, and that there is NO reality to it. However I find myself wounded from it, it is like a small part of that dream stays in my heart, acting like an infection that will spread through out, unless I stop it right away. I know that the Truth is the ONLY cure to its spreading, and infecting my entire heart.

The truth is that this was a low blow from the enemy, he knows my past, and he knows that nearly every man that has played a role in my life has taught me that men will hurt me DEEPLY. He also knows that Josh IS the only man that has taught me differently, Josh in my life is such a huge threat to the enemy. Truth is that Josh loves me; I know this because he tells me over and over again everyday, and even more so, he shows me. He show me by the way I see him looking at me when he doesn’t know  I’m watching, by the way he faithfully prays for me when I am under attack or brokenhearted. I know that Josh loves me because he loves the Lord, and he allows HIM to lead. He shows me that he loves me the most by choosing ME over any situation, through any trial, above all circumstances. That is how I know.

 

The fact is that any time I am doing God’s will, God’s work, and under God’s training, I am becoming powerful through a relationship with the creator of ALL, there is NOTHING more powerful than that. I choose to stay right where i am, side by side with my Lord, I choose to be powerful through His Love and our ever growing relationship. I am choosing Truth today, So YOU LOOSE, and you know exactly who you are! The victory will be mine in and through Christ’s strength!

 

~C